Chameleon of emotions

You know how so much can happen in one day that it can turn your life around? Well that “one day” has been happening to me for the last couple of months. Yeah, party !

So much has been going on that I lost count and my priority list has been altered more that 100 times. And today as l a writing this the wheel just keeps on turning. I don’t know anymore where my head is. What should l do first nor what decisions are gonna be good for me. You know that feeling of your stomach turning inside out every time you take a breath. That feeling seconds before you hear someone saying yes or no to you. Well, that feeling of constant despair and desire to get the answer is taking over my whole being. And l am lost.

The whole spectrum of emotions is digesting my soul but still my body is lying numb. The constant fight inside of me turned me into such a confused person that l don’t know who am l any more.

How, how can l take just one color and paint myself to become plain and boring cause this chameleon state is draining me to my last atoms.

 

Seven